Taking a breather

Around an hour ago, I posted a now deleted post on a routine I was going to set up. It would take 2 hours per day to get it finished but it would definitely help me to improve my skills. Part of this also included spending 15 minutes a day speaking a native speaker. However, the problem with all of this is that I'm turning a hobby into a chore. I'm not planning on studying Portuguese at university I'm studying it solely as a hobby but by forcing myself to stick to rules and deadlines I'm completely sucking the life out of it. Speaking plays another factor in this. Speaking online with a microphone to an unknown person in English would make me so nervous but doing it in a language that I'm no where near fluent is unbelievably nerve-racking. It's no longer any fun at all but something I really dread. This is now not a hobby, it's become something I feel that I have to do and that's something I detest. So from this point on Portuguese will no longer be a chore. If I feel like studying it and reading an article in Portuguese then I will. I'm going to deleted my sharedtalk account so I no longer feel obliged to go on it but I'll probably return when I think the time is right. Also, from now on, if on a whim I feel like learning any part of any language then I will. Because it will be fun and that's why I learn languages!